哎…

哎哟~ 哎呀~ 哎什么都好… 就是觉得很奇怪。怎么一个比一个的更不堪… 是报应吗？T_T

天啊~~~~ 哎…… 欲哭无泪……

美？

几时才能找到一个连我脚趾头也觉得美的人？呵呵呵…

其实不是真的要觉得我脚趾头美啦~ 只不过，至少会欣赏我吧… ^.^

一个不知名的地方

屁股痒，想学人家弄panorama的照片，结果由于相机太beh，在接照片的时候发现因为光度、角度的差别，很难接咯。而且，又不知道panorama照片的大小应该是多少，所以就随便把所有的照片接起来，调调光度就好了。

为什么死都要弄这张照片咧？因为，见到这个风景的时候，发觉到它真的是美呆了… 蓝天白云，绿油油的草皮~ 许多在湖畔（还是河畔？XD）上橘色屋顶的小屋~ 还有遛狗的当地居民… 当时是早上10点多，气温凉凉的又有阳光的照射，还有凉风徐徐~ 很舒服的说…

哦，对了，这是哪里呢？这是我们从Fussen (天鹅堡) 下到来平地，经过的一个不知道叫做什么的地方。当时赶路去瑞士，所以下来逛了10分钟左右，照照相就离开了。

真的很美很美的啊~ 当然，和当天的心情也有很大的关系。美景=心情靓，心情靓见到的景就更美了~ 哇哈哈！

迷失了

从小到大，常听到人说的一句话就是：做人要有目标。当时，觉得自己还小，慢慢定下目标也不迟… 慢慢的想，要找到自己真正要的是什么！

可是随着年纪渐长，才发现到，原来当时的“慢慢想”，其实是给自己逃避的借口。现在回想过去，发现到自己从来都不知道自己要的是什么；原来，自己什么目标都没定过…

不知不觉，到了三张没得找的年纪，看着自己身边的朋友一个个的成功了、一个个嫁的嫁，娶的娶，一下子非常的有感触。尤其是上个星期参加了一个好朋友的喜宴，想回当时我们在在一起混的时候，从担心大学毕业后要做什么，一直迷茫着到底自己走的路对不对等等的。懵懂的小孩，转眼就成为人夫了，还有一个也即将成为人父，当然，大家也都已经事业有成了。:)

而我，还好像当年那个懵懂的小妹，还在原地踏步着。事业无成、寡人一个，每天都在想自己到底要的是什么？到底是什么啊？不知道！没目标的活着，真的好累，一天到晚不知道自己在干嘛~ 最重要的是，还有现实生活上要面对的一堆东西~ 除了累，真的觉得很压力。

我真的迷失了… 除了没目标，当初我仅有的一点坚持，也没有了。当初虽然是不知道自己要做的是什么，可是，至少我会坚持着我当时在做的东西，不那么容易放弃。直到最后真的感到走不下去了，才放手。可是，现在的我，可能老了，容易受挫，所以什么东西都很容易放弃。

有时候，我的确有想死的感觉。这样算是忧郁吗？我觉得应该不是吧，至少，我会问自己到底是不是有忧郁症。不过，肯定是有点自闭，因为我不喜欢和外界接触太多，所以，我现在有的朋友，都是非常非常好的，“年资”最浅的，也应该认识了有6年吧。

这几个礼拜真的想太多太多了… 因为的确太多的东西要想了… 咋办呢？

It's been 2 years + 5 months + 1 week

Waaa... really long time no writing blog. I never updated this blog for more than 2 years! =..=

Luckily this is not a real diary or something like that. If not it would have covered with a very thick layer of dust. XD

Well, why am I writing again? Because I'm getting old and memory is getting worse. So I have to write down whatever I found that is interesting / meaningful, "got feel" at that moment. T︿T So sad to say so, but that is the truth. :)

夜•上海

上海的夜景，确实是数一数二的…
刚刚看了部电影，里面的上海和我在3年前看到的，还是那么的繁华漂亮…
好怀念，走在浦东上，那凉风徐徐、轻轻的海浪声以及淡淡海水的味道…
如果能重游此地，我必定待上更久的时间，再好好感受那美丽的夜•上海。

I'm sick yet can't sleep

I'm still feeling 'energetic' even though I'm sick. Started to feel body aching since the night before and being diagnosed I'm fever last morning. =.=

Perhaps is due to I rested too much after the medication. But I don't feel like continue the medicine since I'm feeling much better already. How ler? No medicine no sleep. >.<

哪来的信心

从来不了解一些人的信心为什么那么的爆棚。一些样衰到不行的人，竟然有很多女性朋友，然后会说出：如果你觉得他比我好的话…… 哇！什么话？我敢肯定，个个人肯定比他好个至少10倍吧！

还有一些人，只要跟他熟络一点，就会说：其实我们并不适合……哇？！什么时候要跟他们适合啊？？T_T 真的很顶不顺！！！如果那么怕的话，就不好跟人家做朋友或扮熟了咯～ ok？妈的！

可是很奇怪的事情就开始延伸了，因为很讨厌会说这种话的人，自然就会远离他们一点，也会对他们有点恐惧感。因为第一：真的很讨厌、很胃，第二：不想他们搭错线说再一次：我们真的不适合！ T_T 可是如果对他们那么‘冷淡’的话，他们就会觉得你在逃避他们，因为真的‘很喜欢’他们嘛～ T_T

请问，我该如何handle这样的人呢？T__T

Day 1 in Eschborn

Arrived in Frankfurt International Airport on the 25th Sept 2009 7:05am local time. After that my sister came and picked me up to her hostel. Didn't do much on the 1st day. Been resting since can't really rest well during the 12 hrs+ flight.

Behind my sister's hostel


Behind the hostel


Snacks of MAS between the supper and breakfast

After dinner, went to a supermarket call Realr nearby the hostel to buy some groceries. There's few machine at the left after the entrance where you can stuck in the used mineral bottles to have few cents (€). A very good and convenient invention.

Realr supermarket


Mineral bottle collecting machine. XD

Put in the bottle

It then will be scanned to determine the brand of the bottle


The screen showing 23 bottles being collected. No beer bottle. Total money refund = €5.75 (each bottle = €0.25) Hohoho!

Money will be refunded in a receipt form and customer can use that to purchase items from the supermarket itself. Not bad huh~~ So, this called the 1st day in Eschborn, Haha!

下雨天～

前天，一个下雨的夜晚，你送了这首歌给我……
当时你说你很伤心，还挂念着她？



别再傻了，忘了她吧～ 希望你可以幸福起来…… ^.^

狗狗

跟朋友收集了这些狗狗照片有些时间了，现在才upload，呵呵……

这是Papi，Emelyn弟弟的女友的狗 =.= 名字都巴闭过人，是一只西施


这是Emelyn去韩国旅行时，发现在杂货店里的一个好帮手 ^.^


也是在韩国旅行时，路上看见的狗狗，够有型！


阿一的狗Boji，不到一岁


一岁后的Boji，坐到那样，听说是讨吃时的指定动作 >.<


姐姐朋友的狗，名叫Toro～ 很大一只的贵宾狗，头型很爆！哈！

Toro 家有喜事，换上了西装呢～

我的莎莎


寂寞的背影……

少了神经线的男人（四）

那天阿目为Umi、阿茫和负能量都冠上了很优美并且有个性的性格分析呢～
阿目：我觉得负能量是个很man的人咯。（XD，我跟阿一对忘了一下，笑到喷饭）
阿目：你们不觉得的咩？他其实很man的！（饭，喷到满地都是）

我们俩打蛇随棍上，就问问他如何看待阿茫。
阿目：阿茫啊，觉得他很型咯，那么多女性朋友。
我们：哇！多女性朋友就等于有型的咩？
阿目：我觉得他真的很型的咯！（阿一和我变到没有力 @.@）

再问问对阿目对Umi的看法，他当天没想到该如何形容，可是一个星期后……
阿目：咦？！Umi，你的鞋子很潮哦！哇！真的真的很潮！Umi，没想到你是个这么潮的人咯！

阿一和我对望后，苦笑…… 总结就是：负能量＝man，阿茫＝型，Umi＝潮。

T_T

少了神经线的男人（三）

那个周六是TAC的我和IT的Umi值早班。

Umi：等下有个美女要来弄她的电脑哦。
我：（美女？你见过了吗？）哦，是啊？几点来？
Umi：昨天啊，她打电话来啊，讲到好像要哭要哭那样，很可怜哦！哦，她说她下午2点会到。
我：…… （滴汗）
Umi：我跟你讲，那个阿茫啊，就是那样认识女孩子的。整天帮人家弄电脑啊，所以认识到很多女子的！！
我：（天啊，弄电脑可不是你们的工作吗？）呃，认识了美女又怎样？有跟美女有进一步的关系或着落吗？如：出去吃饭、变成好朋友之类的？
Umi：美女嘛～ 认识美女喔！他是这样认识美女的喔！（重复……）

※ ※ ※ ※ ※　※ ※ ※ ※ ※　※ ※ ※ ※ ※　※ ※ ※ ※ ※　※ ※ ※ ※ ※　※ ※ ※ ※ ※

帮美女弄了电脑后……

Umi 见到 阿红：头先个个靚女啊，噼里啪啦噼里啪啦…… 阿茫又系甘样识女仔的咯。
Umi 见到 赖屎：头先有个KLCC的靚女黎整电脑，靚女哦～～
Umi 见到 负能量：刚才有个美女来弄电脑哦……

第二天阿一告诉我，Umi没来上班，也要打电话告诉阿目，昨天有个美女来弄电脑。

这个美女话题持续了一星期…… T_T

少了神经线的男人（二）

Umi最喜欢就是走到同事前的座位聊天了，虽然他每次都口口声声说着他有多么的忙！某天，打从我一到公司后，就听见他在投诉用户和他的老板有多么的无知和无理……

※第一次投诉◎在他自己的座位上※
Umi：我的老板啊，傻的哦！他叫我们啊，每15分钟要check一次forum，每封email在30分钟内一定要回复喔！我不用休息的咯！那天我迟了一点，立刻中了咯！Send email过来问我喔，我理他都傻！
零：嗯 嗯 嗯…… （因为forum和email的事情我听了N遍）

※第二次投诉◎站在我的座位前※
Umi：我跟你讲，我的老板酱做法呵，每个人都顶他不顺了的。阿茫（他们的同事，暂时还未归为他们的同类）现在也开始讲他（老板）了嘛～
零：哗～ 阿茫是新人都会开始complain了哦？呵呵！（肯定是听你们讲了不少！）
Umi：是喔！现在阿茫啊，有时接了电话都没有log case的咯，很显了啦！
零：哦…… （继续玩脸书的钓鱼游戏）
Umi：（慢慢的移走）

※的三次投诉◎慢慢的移向我的座位※
在Umi还未移过来时，已经听到他一直在讲：fuck！妈的！怎样做哦？fuck！kanasai！！妈的！JB！由于觉得不太对劲，所以我就装睡 XD。当他发现到我‘睡着了’后，就很不情愿的移回他的座位，然后继续他的fuck！妈的！kanasai…… 我想，他大概有重复了大约20－30分钟吧！听到很想骂他，可是又不能，因为一旦他发现我没睡觉，肯定会跟我大吐苦水的咯～ 唉，真是左右为难。

结论：Umi很喜欢讲重复的东西，包括了任何的事情和词汇。每见到他一定会从听一遍，真想把它录下来，好让他不需要重复，多点时间来休息和check forum。=.=

少了神经线的男人（一）

周六晚，公司大楼的停车场是关闭的。晚上值班的人都只能把车停在大厅前，并于第二天早上（即周日）7时左右都必须把车子移到大楼的后面的停车位。这是因为在7时半左右，会有人来清洗大厅和为大厅前的花花草草浇水……

以下是发生在某个周日早上4时57分时的对话。

零：咦？阿目，4点多5点了喔，还不睡觉？
阿目：哎呀～ 等下我要去移我的车哦！（关事的咩？现在才几点？）
零：现在才差不多5点，还可以睡一下嘛～
阿目：对了，车要移到哪里去？（直接忽略了我之前的话 =.=）
零：后面的parking咯～ 那些guard早上会开后面的parking的。
阿目：吓？后面的parking没有开的喔，怎样哦？（不是刚刚才说了guard早上会开后面的parking咩？）
零：…… （不想讲话）
阿目：…… （觉得很困惑，因为一直在想着parking没开）
零：我要睡觉了。

那个周日早上，神经线没搭上阿目的耳朵，因为他听不见我说话。T_T

少了神经线的男人（序）

自从I部门实施了24×7值班后，就跟他们部门的人有了更进一步的接触，而且是单独接触的那种。这是因为他们每次值班都只有一个人而已，自然而然的就只能对他们唯一的值班人说话、吹水……

开始有了这么‘亲密’的接触后，常常被他们‘炸’到够够力，心里直想这些人怎么那么的*白目。由于整个部门的男人都有类似的问题，所以就把他们冠上了这么一个代号－少了神经线的男人。这群男人目前有3条水，分别是Umi, 阿目和丫凡（希望将来的日子，他们不会再增加新成员吧！）。

什么是“少了神经线”？有人问我是疯吗？还是过于普遍的正常人？都不是啦～ 其实在我自己的解释中，少了神经线就等于没有感觉。因为脑部不能把信息通过神经线输送给他们的眼、耳、口、鼻等等的，使到他们不能正常的接收、回应、表达某些事情和情绪。就如之前说提到的，他们超白目的！

废话少说，就让我在日后和你们分享我和他们共度过的值班经验吧～

* 形容搞不清楚状况、不识相、乱说话、自作小聪明与白痴含意相近的人。【维基百科】

搞笑PD BBQ

由于有些照片就这样上传会显得有点怪，所以就帮它们加了些无中生有的对白和硬硬串成一个故事。呵呵，这样就不会那么的尴尬了嘛～

－完－

演员：
阿海 － 阿凯饰
阿零 － 本人饰
阿玫 － Rosemary饰
阿一 － Sylvia饰

特别演出：
Foo

其它：
张扬
Sean (Rosemary的老公)
路人甲

PD BBQ

Well, this is the first group outing with colleagues after being worked for 2 years + in the current company. This groups are from IT Hotline and APTAC. Hoho... first and ever. No second time. XD

From left to right: Zhang Yang, Foo, Sylvia, Me, Gary, Kai & Rosemary (Cameraman = Rosemary's husband)

Nothing much about this trip. Just had the BBQ at the Glory Beach Resort BBQ pit. But the food during the BBQ was superb. Unexpectable. Haha. We had cheese frankfurters, chicken wing and a lot of BBQ fish, squid and prawns. The BBQ seafood can say is much better than those we can get from outside. Muchx10 better than the one at located in front of Hong Leong Bank at Petaling Street!

The next day had heavy brunch and then went to Seremban buy Seremban siew bao and some other pastries. Not many photos being uploaded here as the rest 'cannot see' one. Just me cannot see. So being very selfishly, I only uploaded the group photo. ;P

A listener

I don't know whether there are people who is having the same thought as I, where sometimes when you are down or low, all you need is just somebody to listen to you at that moment.

You do not need any advices, any suggestions, any comments and people to ask you back questions. All you need is just being listened. That's it.

For instance: I lost RM50 this morning at the KTM Station, and I feel very sad because it is the pocket money for this week and it makes me need to make an overdraft. What will 'fed me up' is such feedback that I might receive:
1) Don't be so sad la, RM50 only ma. - Advice
2) Next time you should keep all your money inside your socks, LOL - Suggestion
3) Hmm... next time don't be so careless lo. - Comment
4) How come you so careless one? - Question

Maybe the above mentioned is not a very good example, but it is just what am I trying to express. Oh, I found that the skill of talking of a listener is important as well. They either don't talk or say something simple where no assumptions involve. Erm... Seems like the listener better don't talk. Unless you are being asked for. Wahaha!

Well, I'm posting this cause I was quite down some moment ago and the listener talked too much. XD Know they were just being concerned but that is not what I wanted. XD

I'm weird and odd. >.<

My Neighbour

It's been 1 month plus since the renovation was going on. This neighbour which is next 2 doors from me, almost drilling and drilling everyday!!! This really makes me crazy as the drilling is starting at 8am or 8:30am sharp, very on time!!!!

If I'm having rest day at home, it will disturb my sleep since the early morning. If I'm working night shift, it will disturb my sleep when I'm back home cause the drilling, hammering etc will only stop in the afternoon. The sound is really irritating!!!!

This is the 2nd time they are having the renovation. The owner aunty used to claim that how poor are they, until like no money to go to the market and need to borrow a little money from each of the neighbourhood. She is really tricky as she will pretend she bring not enough cash and ask people pay on behalf of her first. After that she will pretend forgot to return it to you. Perhaps you will think: aiya, few ringgit buy vege only ma. But if this happen frequently, you'll know how much she can save!!! My mum already kena few times. Cilaka! Besides that, she knows how to drive and the grocery store is just minute away. But if her soya sauce or other sauces finished, she'll come borrow rather than go to buy herself. Especially during the season she wanna have party for her children. The whole brand new bottle of sauce will left less than half when it's being returned. So tak tau malu. Well again, you might say: aiya, also few ringgit only ma. But don't you think this kind of people is sick? She is mentally sick.

Ok, now back to the renovation. Other than the noise, there's an incident happened last week too. The crane that came to tow something to the rooftop has been collapse. It caused the whole neighbourhood out of electricity. Besides that, the crane has been crushed onto another house and storeroom's rooftop, causing the street lamp fell down. It caused the street to a mess. Too bad I only got to know this while on my way to work (yea, I'm working morning shift last week).

This news has been showing on the newspaper the day after that incident.
http://search.sinchew-i.com/node/341858?k=%E5%90%8A%E8%BB%8A:%E8%A3%9D%E4%BF%AE

Well, the owner is not worried as all as all these compensation will be beared by the crane company. The aunty only feel she is lucky as she need not to pay a single cent and she also didn't crushed by the crane nor the street lamp. She only thinking for herself, what about the neighbours???